Well , I have had a interesting day. I got up , took my daughter to school . Came home , sat for 10 mins on facebook thinking how i would like to kick Fred's head in ( more pictures of new girls and comments ) and then cried for 10 mins.
Anyway , when i started to look like Alice Cooper I decided it was time to close down the facebook ( as we have established it makes me angry !! ) and decided to do something productive.
I have recently bought a book called " Too Good To Leave , Too Bad To Stay " ... I think this book was sent to me by god himself , who looked down upon me and thought " you know what she has put up with enough shit and needs some answers now "
Anyway, the book is basically a book about how to decided if your relationship is over or not . But unlike other therapy books this one actually gives you answers .... no pussyfooting around ..
It basically gives you a whole series of questions to ask yourself.
eg : Thinking about that time when things between you and your partner were at their best. Looking back, would you now say that things were really very good between you then?
Anyway there is like a millions questions but the best is that you get a answer !! like the above question , my answer to this was No , then it gives you the answer which is to leave the relationship , it says if things were never very good between you at their best , how can they ever be good in the future ?? basically If it never was very good , it'll never be very good !!
This woman is a genius who wrote this book ! The book tells you this is a guide and it is there to help you get out of your ambivalence state of your relationship.
Since reading it , i am starting to feel more positive , i would still like to smash Fred's head in with a hammer , or just make his life unbearable , but i am not going to do that.
I am going to hold my head high safe in the knowledge that when I move onto my next relationship , it will be a fulfilling , happy , loving and unselfish one ....... because i have took the time out to see what my mistakes have been and how i can change my attitude and get what i want from my relationships.
Fred on the other hand will end up either lonely or with some stupid bint that will put up with his behaviour and then one day wake up like i did and realise that he is a selfish , emotionally challenged bastard who will not change ........... If there is one thing i can count on is that Fred will continue to make the same mistakes again and again because he can't change because he does not want to change and i will tell his new love "I told you so" !!
Happy New Year! - It's a brand new year and i'm going with it. I will no longer be waiting for change. I've decided to start Reconstructing Wonderland. Join me!
4 years ago